Prayer and ponderings

Moms!  I know I cannot be the only one out there feeling this way.  In fact, I know I am not.  I LOVE pinterest.  Love it.  If I actually had the time to do so, I'd sit there for hours repinning (most of the time probably pinning things that I will never get to).  Things that I want, ways in which I wish my house to be, ways to be a more spiritual parent, crafts I want to make, recipes I want to try.  I get on there with such high expectations of myself, such as getting inspired to take the plunge into trying to cook with only my crock pot for an entire year.  It can be done, but that's not who I am.

      Do you ever come off of a website like that feeling inadeqate?  I do, all the time.  Why can't I be like Martha Stewart?  Why can't my house smell of roasting oranges and cinnamon for my husband when he comes home from work? Why can't my child's room be so put together that it looks like something out of a magazine?  Why can't I cook like that?  Why can't I ever put together outfits like that?  Why can't I come up with unique and original ideas?  Why aren't I a size 2?  WHY?  WHY? WHY?

        I'll tell you why.  It's because in my own life, the minute I start comparing myself to the perfection of others, I fall short.  My #1 ministry (as I am learning a LOT lately) is to my family.  But if I am so engrossed in taking time to research how I much better I could be doing at my job, it's a sin to me.  God wants ME.  He wants ME.  He wants ALL of me.  He wants WHAT I have, creative or not.
            I  just bet you that if you really got on there and researched into someone's life, such as someone with a story book kitchen, that you would see that their kitchen may very well be the ONLY thing that's like that.  I'm not saying there is anything wrong with having a beautiful hobby, or cook a fantastic meal.  But it's the moment when you start second guessing yourself that isn't right.  I am guilty of it first.
        My family wants ME!  My 2 year old Blake doesn't come to me and say "Mommy thank you for my awesome crafts that you let me do" or "Mommy the house looks AMAZING" ... he comes up to me and says "Mommy, I need you" or "Mommy I love you"...or he comes up and tickles me.   He wants Mommy, not mommy's perfection.
        I have decided that instead of pouring over magazines and webpages and books about how I can constantly better myself, that I will take some of that time, praying for my son.  He's only 2 years old, but still needs prayer. (I'm not giving up pinterest completely, I'm just not going to obsess anymore)
Ironically, I found this on pinterest :)   But how TRUE.  I always have dreamed of being the kind of parent to pray for my children.  I think I will actually sit down and do it now that I have a physical list in front of me.
Be encouraged ladies. We are in this thing together to encourage one another in love and prayer.